19 Weeks!

Just a short post here.  We've hit 19 weeks...and in about 38 hours we will find out whether we're having a boy or a girl.  I know this is a cliche, but I just hope for a perfectly healthy child.  I'm so proud of my wife, who has handled all of the changes that pregnancy brings while continuing to surpass every woman on Earth in beauty.

 

Everyone keeps saying how small she looks and I think that helps her, but she is a proud momma-to-be. I know she is going to be a great mother.  Sometimes I wonder how I'm going to be able to be a great father.  I mean, I've doubted myself before, like when I order a 16 oz. steak instead of an 8 oz., but this is a little bit more critical of a challenge.  I just want my child to know he or she is loved and I want him/her to live each day to the fullest. I want to lead my child, but not make every decision.  I want him/her to be succesful, but I want them to dream.  I guess what it comes down to is balance.

But, right now, I just hope we can get a few good nights of sleep during the first few weeks after birth.   

On another note, we're beginning the Lenten season tomorrow at church and instead of giving up, I'm taking up a habit of reading my Bible and praying everyday.  Also, I intend to enjoy every second of every day. I live too much in the future....I only have this moment and I'm letting too many of them go by without making a difference.  I just heard the song again "Hello World" by Lady Antebellum and the lyrics struck a nerve with me...I think there is a lot of connection to Christ here:

"Oh, the empty disappears

I remember why I'm here
To surrender and believe
I fall down on my knees
Oh hello world, hello world, hello world"

There has been some "empty" in me lately, especially as I go through the motions of my day to day life.  It's time to snap out of my trance...and live in this world right now again.  I surrender to Jesus...I want Him to fill my emptiness.  I want His will to be done in my life.